Shizuka Touya

2010-08-10T01:47:00.000-07:00

2010-07-27T05:12:00.000-07:00

It's been too long since I updated my blog. Ah. That's a shame. Demo...was busy lately...a lot of things have happened lately...Shizuka shall write about the recent stuff then...

Last week, Sunday: Shizuka went for tuition at Admiralty. It was a bit nerve-racking at first since it's been so long I attended tuition. It was the first time I have to travel to the tutuor's house for tuition. Apparently he was a 'friend' of that man...tutor's house was so cool...sugoi!! He keeps three Jack Russels and even gave me a break time during the tuition to play with the dogs. Cola, Whiskey and Scotch. Got scratches since the dogs haven't have their nails cut but it was still a fun experince..^^At least I remembered what is covalent and ionic...can tell that tutor is too experinced...

This week: I have never felt so irked about this hentai...

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2010-07-10T21:18:00.000-07:00

Nodame Cantabile part 2 is coming out in July 15!! Anyone want to catch it with me??

2010-07-04T22:14:00.000-07:00

Damn bitch! When are you going to start admitting that I am not your child!

2010-07-03T23:04:00.000-07:00

Tadaima. It's been quite a long time since I last updated my blog. A lot have happened. Start off with FnN first......

FnN: It was 1st of July, Thursday. I wasn't feeling over-panicking like some of my friends. Was thinking back then, what is there to fret over? Just cook naturally and be myself. Even when the last period ended, I was still feeling alright. Then things start to turn about...It was raining after school and I have to meet up with 'mum' since she was going to bring some more FnN stuff to me. She wasn't puntually on time. Then when I returned back to the canteen with the FnN stuff, I suddenly realised my Planning was with 'mum'. I quickly called her (there goes my 50 cents) and by the time I got back, I was just in time to meet my other friends and we all went to the kitchen. Mrs Tan was talking,talkng and talking until 1430! That is an awful late start. Then the damn blender wouldn't work. Have to get and setup a new one. Wasted my time. The second one wasn't good. Only worked a little when I chopped the fruits going in there more finely. Crap. I only started my second dish at 1500pm. Was seriously starting to panic. Wok stand put wrong, Mrs Tan inquiring how much oil I needed......bad. Then while slicing a packet of parmesan cheese with my paring knife, I sliced my finger instead. Din't cry out. Din't shout. Maybe I was too retarded? Was letting the blood dripped into the sink, hoping it will eventually stop. But already the floor and the sink was bloodied. No choice.
Me: Mrs Tan. Got plaster?
Mrs Tan: Why....??
Me: erm...cut myself.
Mrs Tan: Come here.
She helped me clean the wound. Wasn't scared of the pain. Was more terrified at the amount of blood that oozed out from the cut instead that I cried. Din't even smell the blood. Then my whole coursework was delayed. Have to work with one hand mostly. I've completed alll my five dishes at 1645. There were still some who were still cooking away. At first, I was self-assured until I have to start washing all the utensils that piled up my sink. Washed with one hand. Utensils oily so have to rewashed them frequently. Argh! Then need to clean the cooker......Was the last one. Wasn't expecting that. Me. Last. The cut is okay now I think. Just still reddish like it's going to ooze out blood if I were to squeez my finger tight......like a red paint tuber?? But still, I can't be a wimp. It's just a cut. Nothing to freak about.

Yesterday at KFC: Ordered an Ole Ole meal. Yuliany was in emo-state 'cause jealous of something. She finished her meal way before us: Yi Min, Kang Le, Sim Yee and me. Then when I moved on to eat the last piece of chicken.....it tasted awful. The flesh especially was bleah!Even Kang Le complained the skin had a weird stench. But Yuliany was there...yeah. Have to eat finish no matter what. Almost cried. No more eating unjapanese meat! At least, Yi Min sympathized with me once Yuliany and Sim Yee left early because Yulainy had once forcefully asked Yi Min to eat vegetable. After we left KFC, we went to Popular since I wanted to buy manga there. The whole of the day at Jurong Point, they were teasing me about meat..............

2010-06-25T22:50:00.000-07:00

Haven't eaten lunch......got out of bed finally at 12pm. Head was dizzy then. Hmm...today's schedule...?? Perhaps it will be buying my lunch first then doing the remaining holiday homework. Then in the late afternoon, maybe I will try cooking cream of onion.

Things to buy in order:
Judo book $12.90
Prepaid card $8.00
Anime poster $3.00
Yuliany's present

Then continue saving to eat my fill =) =) =)

2010-06-22T04:23:00.000-07:00

To murder or not to..
To suicide or not...

2010-06-22T03:14:00.000-07:00

Went to Big Booksop today. There is a Judo and Karate book on sale. Definately the first thing I am going to buy once I save up $12.90.

2010-06-21T21:15:00.000-07:00

Family. What is family? It is only a disgusting, revolting word in the dictionary. Just because I did not give my cellphone number to that man, he threatened me again. And is it my fault for acting disrespectfully to them?! They don't even deserve my respect so why should I be the one giving in to them? Why should I be the one pulling the strings? They are not even my lover. Why should I be the one to act weak? If I'm not even your child then just damn admit it! That will make my day! And stupid man, don't touch me and my things! And don't go near my bed like you did this morning!You are only making me feel like getting myself baptized after being touched with a vermin! And to think I was trying to get myself to forgive you lot! I won't kill myself but I won't give in either.

2010-06-20T01:22:00.000-07:00

Melody of Michael

release date: 18 November 2009

language: japanese

Disc 1 (23 tracks)

1. Teito Klein

2. Reminiscene (piano version)

3. Reminiscene (trombone version)

4. Guiding Memory

5. Busy Time

6. Imperial Military Academy

7. Warm Heart

8. Soul Killer ~ Zehel

9. Soul Killer ~ Zehel part.2

10. Soul Keeper ~ Profe

11. Soul Keeper ~ Profe part.2

12. Soul Binder ~ Fest - Spinning Fate

13. Barsburg Empire

14. Empire's Menace

15. Everyday wrapped in Light

16. Sister's Guidance

17. Ho-BuRuGu Fort

18. The Next Move

19. End The Fight Violently

20. Power of Darkness becomes Powerful

21. Barsburg Church

22. A Song of Blessing

23. Requiem of the Beloved Sacrifices

Disc 2 (26 tracks)

1. Unreachable Thoughts ~ Despair

2. The 7th District ~ God's Domain

3. The Night at Church Wears On

4. Darkness draws near

5. Noel Mermaid ~ Razette

6. Legend ~ Seven Ghost

7. Counterattack Signal

8. Counterattack Signal (chorus cut version)

9. Power of Darkness released

10. Eye of Michael ~ Awakening

11. Escape

12. Spirit that sinks into darkness

13. God grants a kind power

14. God grants a kind power part.2

15. Familiar ~Kor

16. Ayanami ~ Verloren

17. Commence Operation

18. Tension

19. Heartless Decision

20. Crisis draws near

21. Anxiety

22. Powerful Imprisoning Darkness ~ Wars

23. Be Pure My Child, and Sleep

24. Flow of Calm Times

25. Soul's Path

26. Tree's Filtered Sunlight

27. Fate's Choice

Disc 3 (24 tracks)

1. Aka no Kakera (Tv Size)

2. Snow of My Home

3. Light that guides forward

4. Power of Darkness crawls

5. Hymn A

6. Time Light Floods

7. Lamb that Falls from the Sky

8. Dark Clouds

9. Eye Catch A

10. Eye Catch B

11. Chance Meeting

12. Inside my deer daily memories

13. Raggs Requiem (album edit)

14. Hymn B

15. The 7th District's Specialty

16. Unsettling Wind of the World's Destruction

17. Lost Lamb

18. Premonition

19. Hitomi no Kotae ~the past version~TV Size

20. Infoming Flower ~ Number.1

21. Inforimg Flower ~ Number.2

22. Informing Flower ~ Number.3

23. Bonus Tracks Mini Drama ''Escape''

24. Hitomi no Kotae ~ the future version~ TV Size

Watashi wa sore o aisuru!!

2010-06-16T05:44:00.000-07:00

Shizuka is happy. No more relying on others and no more being relied on. This is great. So great. I am happy. Caught the slight scent of freedom. I can do whatever I want in my way and I can't wait to master it. No more listening to others. Just me. My voice. My needs to attend to. Tastes so good.

Can't wait to try out the trial for FnN practical. Mango dipping sauce..tomato sauce...souffle...cream of onion....oishii. Tanoshimi.

But the money to buy all the ingredients......

2010-06-07T07:22:00.000-07:00

Crap. Piss me off. No proper dinner. Does I look like I'm on a liquid diet?! Oba-san.

2010-06-06T18:06:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 0608. Really woke up, I mean. Crap. FnN.

On the way to school, I don't know why I kept smiling.

Currently, Touya is in school, typing away. Not a word in my coursework though.

2010-06-05T22:09:00.000-07:00

Today is quiet. Sort of. I woke up at 0750 and then that woman woke up thereafter and talked to me. Argued this and that. Typical. Why can't I have a peaceful wake up. I read Harry Potter's fifth installment on my bed to get some vocab out of it. Mr Paul reminded me that I have to start reading again. Then, I have rice dumpling as breakfast. Not very fulfilling. I could have eaten more. Eaten better. At around 1100, I went to JE library. Returned overdue books( cost me $1.20 =( ). At least I got to borrow books there=)

Tomorrow there's FnN class...looking a little bit forward to it. A little. That's all. Have to bring along jacket(hope it's out of the laundry) and some food...I don't want to get all worked up because my stomach is grumbling for food.

2010-06-04T22:44:00.000-07:00

This is a new blog. I forgot my account for the previous one so I have to make a new one.

Yesterday, I went to Singapore Polytechnic with Yi Min, Sim Yee and Hui Wen. I wasn't looking much forward to it at first because I only have $1.10 to spend and that couldn't buy me much food...I ended up with an Apple Fuji and eating Sim Yee's lunch. The lecturer there was telling on about the courses and it only left me sort of disturbed because the courses seem hard and it only reminded me that O levels are approaching nearer.

Two days ago, Yuliany told me that I don't know how to accept things and gratitude from people.
It's sort of true. I don't want to rely too much on my friends because the last thing I need is to be a burden to them. I don't want to live off them either. Guess my pride doesn't allow it. It's not that I don't want to open up but why should I open up if no one is going to be there for me. If so, no one is in the position to ask me to open up. I do like my friends though. Sim Yee, Yuliany, Yi Min, Kang Le, Teck Wen and Adrian.

Fast Forward: Sim Yee's birthday is coming up. I finally have my hair cut short. The whole of next week might be like hell because of the FnN corsework.